Please note - I'm in the process transferring these writings from a website that I used to have to this one. When they are transferred, I added a note to confirm it with the date. For example - Transferred December 1st, 2018
Please note - all of the writings have been updated transferred to this website. I'm inclined to leave these notes here because it's natural and life is rough draft and improvised. It's more Authentic.
Last Updated - December 6th, 2018
Table of Contents with Brief Descriptions
Blog titles in alphabetical order including but not limited to key ideas and updated as needed.
3 - 3 Meltdowns - - Reflecting on a trip that I took with my family when I was a child. - Transferred - December 3rd, 2018
3 way call - A note that highlights 2 people in my life from very different perspectives. - Transferred - December 3rd, 2018
A - A funny thing happened - Reflecting on my understanding of some social and political dynamics as an adolescent and adult. - Transferred - December 3rd, 2018
A hair raising experience - teacher, teacher assistant relationship, co-workers - Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Aisle see you in the kosher section - food shopping, Jewish, kosher, self comfort - Transferred December 3rd 2018
Aloha - Reflecting on my mother (and maybe others) who toured the United States to share their perspectives of what happened on November 3rd and one of the places being Hawaii. Transferred December 3rd, 2018
A time to steal and a time for restorative justice - stealing, admitting, white privilege, anxiety, different perspectives, mother and son, doing the right thing Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Auto not correct - language, perceptions, understanding, teacher and student transferred December 3rd, 2018
A walk in the park - brother and sister, patents, big sister - transferred December 3rd, 2018
A well thawed out experience - father and son, 1st apartment, cooking, helping to cook, learning to cook - transferred December 3rd, 2018
B - Baggage for One Please - Reflecting on healing, healthcare, and well being personally and collectively. Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Being confused in a new garden of Eden - first kiss, confusing experience, awkward experience, boundaries, reflecting on self and others in relationships transferred December 3rd, , 2018
Big Words - Reflecting on some of my processing my thoughts and feelings about November 3rd as an adolescent for myself and with 2 peers. Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Blue Tear - Poem and story - father supporting son, self confidence or self esteem, creative expressions, validation - Transferred December 3rd, 2018
By the way I adopted you - self comfort, mindset, adopting family, shared experience - transferred December 3rd, 2018
C - Cheesy religion - funny misunderstanding, misunderstanding, Spiritual, prayer before meal, child's perspective, experience with a situation - transferred December 3rd, 2018
Cruel and Inhumane Punishment - Reflecting on an experience I had in preschool related to me and the collective. - transferred December 3rd, 2018
D - Dangling Cigarette - A poem I expressed to help me process November 3rd. At one point, Roland Wayne Wood was a direct symbol of what I and others saw and felt as a planned attack. Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Divorcing my current reality or I already had my turn - a child's experience with his parents divorce, different family members perspectives of a parent's divorce Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Doing our part numbers - worker's experience, manager's experience at work, not communicating with manager, manager responding Humanely Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Dreams fading away - reflecting on some dreams I've had Transferred December 3rd, 2018
E - Eww, you broke it - reflecting on an interaction that I had with young students and relating it to the big picture. Transferred December 3rd, 2018
F - Family of outbursts - reflecting on sometimes when I've expressed myself in what's sometimes called, "outbursts".Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Family traditions - reflecting on getting together with family members to find a movie that we could all agree on.Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Fun take aways - reflecting on a game I made and did.Transferred December 3rd, 2018
G - Getting Separated But Not Being Dumped - Reflecting on some thoughts feelings and an experience I had in a relationship with someone.Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Gun Shy - Reflecting on my experience shooting a gun for the first and last time. Also, exploring relevant thoughts and feelings about guns and violence personally and in the context of a dominant culture.Transferred December 3rd, 2018
H - Happy Birthday to You. How old would you have been? - reflecting on Jim's birthday and deathday. Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Help Wanted - Help Given - Reflecting on an interaction I had with a customer at my first job. Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Help Wanted - Shopping for Justice - Reflecting on my first job and being confronted with Racism as a daily experience and my relationship with it at the time and looking back. Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Help Wanted - Will You Hire Me? Reflecting on applying for my first job as it relates to me and racism, privilege, and being marginilized. Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Hello Friend - a brief description of Z Holler and my relationship with him. Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Home is Where the Stability is - Reflecting on some of my thoughts, feelings, and experiences living with my parents after November 3rd. Also, relating some of these to the bigger picture with race, class, and privilege. Transferred December 3rd, 2018
Homework lessons brought to class at Tiffany's - reflecting on an experience and relationship I had with classmates in about the 8th grades. Transferred December 3rd, 2018
I - I can't believe he said the word capitalism out loud - reflecting on an experience I had as a 7th grade student and my understanding of the idea of capitalism and related ideasTransferred December 3rd, 2018.Transferred December 3rd, 2018
I can't believe it - reflecting on some of my responses to a loved ones death by being murdered.
I can't even give you some damn ink - reflecting on my experience related to my mother, her supporting me and my not being able to help her at one particular moment.
I Can't Handle You Right Now - Reflecting on how I feel about people greeting me and me greeting others.
I Don't Get it, it's Just a Word - Reflecting on my understanding of November 3rd immediately afterwards and learning different perspectives from my mother when I asked her about the word, "shootout" in the newspaper.
I got writing my name down to a science paper - Reflecting on an experience I had as a student processing my feelings after Jim was murdered.
I'm resting from my case your honor - sharing my experience, perspective of attending the last day of the 3rd trial about November 3rd.
I'm sorry grandpa - reflecting on an experience, interaction I had with my grandfather shortly after November 3rd. Relating social, political, and individual dynamics that was way beyond my understanding of everything.
I Need Your Attention Please - Reflecting on an experience I had right after November 3rd when I wanted attention. Also, relating it to thoughts, feelings, privilege, and marginilized.
Infamous - my experience with my relationship with my mother and others giving her a false label.
Intense experience out of tents - reflecting on an experience I had camping with my sister and parents.
Intersection of physical and spiritual - experience I had at a physical intersection.
I support people, I don't support tests - reflecting on a staff meeting at a school and bearing witness to a guidance counselor's response.
I Took a Crash Course in Driving, Class, Race, and the Environment - Reflecting on my individual experience with driver's education and relating it to class, race, mobility, environment, privilege, and marginilized in the big picture of other people's experiences, perspectives, etc.
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K - Keep Singing - Reflecting on interactions I had with students and staff at a school that I worked with and at.
L - Learning to Ride a Bike - Reflecting on the time Jim and my mother gave me a bike and taught me to ride a bike.
Leo Lionni Has Class - Reflecting on reading Leo Lionni books to kindergartners and some of what that meant and means to me and maybe others.
Line Leaders - Reflecting on experiences I had with elementary school aged students and relating it to the big picture in the context of leadership.
Little blessings - reflecting on feelings about children's birthday being November 3rd.
Living on the edge of a cliff - reflecting on some of my thoughts and feelings after November 3rd.
Lunch Break from School - Reflecting on going home for lunch in the 7th grade. Other key ideas include - relationships, diagnosis, and Autism.
M - Ma, what does autopsy mean? - reflecting on an experience I had with my mother and a paramedic on (or around) November 3rd.
Ma, what does deny mean? - reflecting on an experience I had related to justice, race, violation, hurt, healing, my mother, a classmate and others
Mayhem - reflecting on some of my experience and mindset after my hearing in grad school and starting to work with a new supervisor.
Money for a broken lamp - reflecting on my giving a classmate money for a broken lamp and our teacher's response and other perspectives.
N - Name that relationship in 3 words - a brief description clarifying the status of a romantic relationship.
Natural Consequences - Reflecting on natural consequences as I relate to it myself and in general by a collective.
Nesting - describing thoughts and feelings I had about a classmate. Reflecting on gender, privilege, and other dynamics.
Neurotribes - noting a resource
Now you tell me - reflecting on saying goodbye to Jim at the funeral home.
O - Observant Jew - reflecting on experiences I had with people related to Judaism and values.
P - Pictures of Roland Wayne Wood - pictures of Roland Wayne Wood on November 3rd, 1979 and talking with GTRC Commissioners around 2006. Need to find and add to blog.
Pranks But No Pranks - Reflecting on an experience I had related to Pranks, perceptions, realities, Truth, class and race.
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R - Raising a son, and harvesting a mother - reflecting on an experience I had with my mother helping each other out on a farm that my mother co owned and managed with her husband at the time.
Reducing emotional salt in my wounds - reflecting on an experience I had with my father helping me heal from a hurt.
S - Secret santa has a gun - describing an experience I had with a secret Santa and items gun related items that he gave me.
Shakespeare Coming Out of Left Field - Reflecting on an experience I had with sports that stands out.
Signed, Sealed, Delivered, It's Forged - Reflecting on an experience I had as a 7th grade student and relating it to my mother, teacher, and other school and social dynamics.
Skating by in life - reflecting on an experience I had with Jim and me, our beings and some life lessons.
T - That's a Kippah - Reflecting on part of my Jewish education when I started working at a Jewish day school.
The big easy aint so easy - description of part of a family trip and my sensibilities or responses to a situation.
The Collaborators - reflecting on part of a brief group experiences, my thoughts and feelings and some cultural issues.
The Greatest Thing Since Sliced Bread - Brief description of a resourceful idea that I learned from a housemate who was a lawyer and provided legal support regarding the Greensboro Massacre.
The hope bill - a note about a news item that I heard about.
The intersections of people, thoughts, and feelings - reflecting on an experience I had at an intersection as a pedestrian.
The Jew Meets the Wasps and Gets Stung - Reflecting on an experience I had with Jim Waller, mowing the lawn and ways of being.
The Parting of The Thorny Bushes - Reflecting on a harmful and healing experience I had on a beach trip with family members and others.
The stranger that saved my life - describing the time a man pulled me out of the ocean when I think I was drowning.
The universe can't do nothin' to me - reflecting on some of my thoughts and feelings immediately after November 3rd.
They're swearing in and I'm swearing - reflecting on some thoughts and feelings of my experience at the GTRC Commissioners swearing in ceremony.
Too Tired For This Job - Reflecting on an experience I had at a temp job and relating it to class and race.
Truth Fairy - Reflecting on some of my experiences with a Tooth Fairy for me and related to various aspects of a culture.
U - Upside down planet - note about my state of mind and ideas I had a story from a certain perspective.
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W - Well, That's ODD - Reflecting on experiences related to social work, diagnosing, and various other aspects of oppressive cultures with different perspectives.
We tipped the canoe in tippecanoe county - describing the time my mother, her husband and I tipped in a canoe in Tippecanoe County and our responses.
What's in a word? - December 5th, 2018 - 12:54 pm to 12:55 pm - Updated combination of I don't get it, it's just a word and I can't even give her some damn ink
Where are you going? That's Robby Meeropole - reflecting on an experience I had at the end of the 25th anniversary of the Greensboro Massacre when we finished the March.
Wouldn't you like to know? All parts, before meeting, during, and after meeting are put together in one post.
Wouldn't you like to know? Yes, I Wood or I did not see that coming - Preparing to talk with Wood - 1 of 3 - description of preparing to talk with Roland Wayne Wood.
Wouldn't you like to know? - Yes, I Wood - on the road and the meeting - 2 of 3 - description of the time when my mother, Nelson and I were on the way to talk with Wood and the meeting from my perspective.
Wouldn't you like to know? Yes I Wood -reflecting on the meeting - 3 of 3 - reflecting on the meeting with Wood.
Wray of friendship and support or exercising clumsiness - description of my best friend, who was athletic, supported me who wasn't.
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Y - You Can't Hang Out There Anymore - Reflecting on an experience I had with different perspectives on relationships with some people we know and some people we don't know.
You did what? - description of me hitting a wall when I was an adolescent and my mother's and I responses, reactions.
You either get me to love you or you fight for revolution, but you don't do both - a reoccurring thought that I tell myself as a way to process transitioning from Jim.
You're moved? (Surprised tone of voice) - description of a South African Truth and Reconciliation Commissioner's response to November 3rd in the context of humanity.
You just died and you got mail - note about Jim still getting mail after November 3rd and other related dynamics or aspects.
Your witness - description I had as a student when I felt pressured by a teacher.
You Scared the Hell Out of Me -Reflecting on an experience I had with my sister and Jim Waller and some relationship dynamics.
Yo Yo Me - Describing a healing experience I had shortly after November 3rd.
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