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Written - April 16th, 2017 - 7:00 pm to 7:33 pm

Edited - April 17th, 2017 -  2:20 pm - 3:00 pm -

Edited - April 19th, 2017 - 2:35 pm to 3:01 pm - Added Advertisements Section

Aisle See You in the Kosher Section

One time, I think that I was in my 30's, when I was in a store I asked a cashier, "where's the kosher section?"  She said, "you mean like the pickles?

Sometimes when I'm in the grocery store I like to go to the kosher section of the store.  Even though I know that I can't afford to buy any of the items, it's nice to just stand there and look at the items and take them in mentally.  Some food and drinks that I've had like matzah, macaroons, and Dr. Brown's soda.  And some that I haven't but connect to strong Jewish cultural traditions.   It's so calming to me.  I think that I've done it periodically in passing as I've been at the store over the years.  But it became more profound or conscious in my mid to late 40's.

I think that it relates to my biological family members and other Jewish connections like the Seders that I've been to.  For example my grandmother made a lot of nice kosher Jewish food for me and others, Bagels with Lox, cream cheese, gefilte fish.   My grandfather expressed his Judaism strongly so he gave me an example of Judaism.  My uncle introduced me to an egg cream and taught me Pishe Pasha (a Jewish card game).

I also wonder if it relates to an early childhood experience.  While I don't remember the details, there's a family story of my mother giving me (and I think my sister) pens or pencils and advertisements of toys and other things. She told me (or us) to look at the advertisements and circle everything that we wanted.  Then, she said she'd get them for me (or us).  I think that she never got any of the items for me.  So, the ritual became looking at the items and fantasizing about having them.

And to this day, I don't go looking for advertisements.  But, when I do get coupons or advertisements, I like to look at them and then get rid of the advertisements.  I've also found it to be alot cheaper to look at the advertisements, pretend to have it in my mind and then get tired of the items. Because, I'm going to get tired of the items whether I actually pay for it or not.

I also wonder, now that I've been diagnosed with autism and non verbal learning disability about 40 years after the initial advertisement reviews, I wonder how that experience relates to transition and maybe other things with those diagnoses.

So, for those who have passed, may they rest in peace, and may their memories be for a blessing.  It feels nice to make those connections.  Maybe it connects to people, places, good feelings, and offers a positive foundation when the impersonal Capitalist system knocks me on my ass, sometimes pushing me to suicidal thoughts and feelings.

Even though I might stand facing the kosher food and drinks for 1 or 2 minutes, it offers or provides a significant amount of life and support.

So, to Judaism, loved ones, the kosher aisle in stores and kosher sections in life, I say l'chaim (a toast used in drinking to a person's health or well-being).

 

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April 16th, 2017 -  7:00 pm - 7:33 pm

Aisle see you in the kosher section

Sometimes when I'm in the grocery store I like to go to the kosher section of the store.  It's so it's calming to me. I think that it relates to my biological family members and other Jewish connections. For example my grandmother made a lot of nice kosher Jewish food for me and others. My grandfather expressed his Judaism strongly so he gave me an example of Judaism. My uncle interest makes you an egg cream and pitcher pressure and there was General Jewish Jewishness. So, for those who have passed, may they rest in peace, and may their memories be for a blessing.  To my grandparents and my uncle.

I don't know if it reminds me I think about my grandmother may she rest in peace and her making you know Bagels lox and cream cheese and making you know lots of good food. It might be it's also could be a remind me of my grandfather may he rest in peace when he had a strong Jewish connection. It could be also could be reminding me of my uncle mom and taking me to get an egg cream, teach me picture pressure, and just kind of just connected.

One time when I was in a store I asked a cashier, "where's the kosher section?"  She said, "you mean like the pickles?

Edited - April 17th, 2017 -  2:20 pm - 2:58 pm -

Aisle see you in the kosher section

One time, I think that I was in my 30's, when I was in a store I asked a cashier, "where's the kosher section?"  She said, "you mean like the pickles?

Sometimes when I'm in the grocery store I like to go to the kosher section of the store.  Even though I know that I can't afford to buy any of the items, it's nice to just stand there and look at the items and take them in mentally.  Some food and drinks that I've had like matzah, macaroons, and Dr. Brown's soda.  And some that I haven't but connect to strong Jewish cultural traditions.   It's so calming to me.  I think that I've done it periodically in passing as I've been at the store over the years.  But it became more profound or conscious in my mid to late 40's.

I think that it relates to my biological family members and other Jewish connections like the Seders that I've been to.  For example my grandmother made a lot of nice kosher Jewish food for me and others, Bagels with Lox, cream cheese, gefilte fish.   My grandfather expressed his Judaism strongly so he gave me an example of Judaism.  My uncle introduced me to an egg cream and taught me Pishe Pasha (a Jewish card game).

So, for those who have passed, may they rest in peace, and may their memories be for a blessing.  It feels nice to make those connections.  Maybe it connects to people, places, good feelings, and offers a positive foundation when the impersonal Capitalist system knocks me on my ass, sometimes pushing me to suicidal thoughts and feelings.

Even though I might stand facing the kosher food and drinks for 1 or 2 minutes, it offers or provides a significant amount of life and support.

So, to Judaism, loved ones, the kosher aisle in stores and kosher sections in life, I say l'chaim (a toast used in drinking to a person's health or well

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