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©    Written and Edited - April 24th, 2017 - 3:36 p.m. to 3:53 p.m.

Edited - April 25th, 2017 5:00 pm to  5:08 pm

Being Confused in a New Garden of Eden

One day when I was in New Garden Friends School, I was in the gym. A schoolmate maybe classmate, Eden was chasing me around the gym.  I don't know or remember why she was chasing me, but she was.  I was running away from her as fast as I could, but she finally caught up to me and kissed me.

I think that I was about six years old and it was the first time that I got kissed by a girl.  'Eew, she kissed me', I thought.  It was yucky and I was confused.

Over the years and now I have mixed feelings about being kissed and kissing women. Sometimes I like it and sometimes I don't.  It depends on what kind of relationship I have with a woman. The better the relationship and maybe more intimate of a relationship I have with a woman the kissing feels better.

I was diagnosed with autism and Non-Verbal learning disability about 41 years after that situation.  I wonder, about how that experience relates to my perception of boundaries, personal space, physical touch, closeness, emotional connection and gender ways of being, my male and her female.

I don't have the answers to these questions.  And I've just realized these questions now about 43 years after the situation.

I hope to continue to reflect on that experience as well as many others in the context of my journey in order to bear fruit.

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Written and Edited - April 24th, 2017 - 3:36 p.m. to 3:53 p.m.

Edited - April 25th, 2017 5:00 pm to  5:08 pm

Being Confused in a New Garden of Eden

 

One day when I was in New Garden Friends School, I was in the gym. A schoolmate maybe classmate, Eden was chasing me around the gym.  I don't know or remember why she was chasing me, but she was.  I was running away from her as fast as I could, but she finally caught up to me and kissed me.

 

I think that I was about six years old and it was the first time that I got kissed by a girl.  'Eew, she kissed me', I thought.  It was yucky and I was confused.

 

Over the years and now I have mixed feelings about being kissed and kissing women. Sometimes I like it and sometimes I don't.  It depends on what kind of relationship I have with a woman. The better the relationship and maybe more intimate of a relationship I have with a woman the kissing feels better.

 

I was diagnosed with autism and Non-Verbal learning disability about 41 years after that situation.  I wonder, about how that experience relates to my perception of boundaries, personal space, physical touch, closeness, emotional connection and gender ways of being, my male and her female.

 

I don't have the answers to these questions.  And I've just realized these questions now about 43 years after the situation.

 

I hope to continue to reflect on that experience as well as many others in the context of my journey in order to bear fruit.

 

 

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