© Written and Edited - April 30th, 2017 - 1:02 pm to 1:21 pm
Dreams Fading Away
I've had a lot of dreams related to November 3rd over the years. One of my dreams involved Jim being in them. In some of my dreams, I was hugging Jim, and he faded away in my arms.
Looking back, it might have been my way of processing the experience in which I had to transition from living with him to not living with him. I've had other dreams with them either repeating in full or repeating some elements in more dreams.
I had another dream in which Jim and I were at the Cypress Street house. I think the scene was in the kitchen. I said, "Jim, where have you been?" He said that he was in Africa. I said in a frustrating tone of voice, " then why have I been schlepping your brown lamp for all of these years? One of my many treasured items that I have is a brown lamp that used to be his.
At a deeper level, I wonder about different aspects of dreams. I think that they are ways for us to process things from our conscious states. But I also have a theory that when people who have died physically, appear in our dreams, the dreams take on more meaning. Are the people actually in the dream and/or there might be other things going on that I just don't have words for now. But I think that the thoughts are worth exploring.